Uncharted Territory

I am 35.5 weeks pregnant and am officially the most pregnant I have ever been!!

I'm approaching the end of my pregnancy and I am SO, so ready for this baby to be here!  Yes I know that EVERYTHING will change when she comes (I say "know" lightly because I know that I dont REALLY KNOW what's about to hit our family...), but regardless, I'm ready.  Pregnancy is amazing and is a gift I am incredibly thankful for - but its tough stuff!  Especially when you've got another child to chase after all day who doesnt quite understand why Mama can't sit on the floor like she used to or play chase or take her for long outings....

 Annie was born at 35 weeks (and a few days) - so I don't know what it's like to go beyond this point of pregnancy.  However, Emery is looking good and so she should stay in just a little bit longer...but not too long I hope!  She has been moving very...strangely...today.  My belly feels more stretched and heavier...and I've had feet and elbows and a butt poking out of every direction today.  Maybe she's trying to get situated - but i wish she would hurry up b/c this feels so so weird!!!

 I've been thinking a lot about this tiny human lately, and one thing I keep thinking about is that this tiny person inside of me... is formed.  She's not the weird baby blob that you see on whattoexpect.com where it shows you what your baby looks like as she's developing.  She's done.  She looks exactly the way she will look when she's born.  Her hair is in place, her eyes have their color, her cheeks are as chubby as they'll be, her little nose is ready, her lips, her belly... she's done!  (she just needs to grow a bit more).  I can only picture her as the baby blob that the development sites show you because it's just SO crazy that a perfectly finished, formed little human is inside of my body... I just cant seem to wrap my brain around it.  

While I am SO over being pregnant - I still count it as one of the most amazing miracles EVER.  The fact that a little butt keeps poking up in my chest or a little foot keeps jabbing me in the side, or that little hands keep tickling my bladder... is just crazy.  It's a REAL butt and a REAL foot and a REAL hand...not some abstract little part - but real, live, baby parts!  Is it just me or is that just.... wow?

Im insanely anxious to meet this sweet little darling and am SO ready for her, but I also want her to make it full term so that we wont have to spend any time in the NICU.  It'd be nice to give birth to my baby and be able to bring her home within a few days and not have to travel back and forth between my darling girl at home and my new girl at the hospital. I'm pretty sure the birth of Emery will be hard enough as it is on my dear little Annie.

So... pray that E stays in a little bit longer, but not too long...because I'm ready to see this tiny one!!