Remembering Nicole

This time of year always makes me think about eternity. Not that I don't usually think about it... but 5 years ago I experienced a first! I've never really had anyone close to me die. I had a grandma die when I was 6 and a cousin die when I was young, but I was too young to really know what it all meant. I didn't even really know my grandma or my cousin that well - I was too little. 5 years ago today, Nicole Bennett was killed in a car wreck. I met Nicole in the 5th grade. 5th grade was where everyone from 4 different elementary schools merged into one school. The first memory I have of her was Space Camp! I have no idea how I even got connected with her, but my first photos of her were from there! From then on Nicole and I became great friends and were great friends all the way through High School! As I write this thousands of memories fly through my head! I didn't know Nicole very well when she died though. After graduation everyone seems to part ways - and I was away at college while she was doing her own thing in beauty school. I didn't know as much about her as I did 5 months prior to her death... but I do remember that day. I was getting ready for class in my dorm room and I remember every single moment of the day. Of the next 3 days. It's interesting, having a close friend die. Makes you think a lot!

So this day has come every year for the last 5 and I try to focus in on the fact that although sometimes I think I'm indestructible, the truth is... I'm not. I think i blogged about this a few weeks ago - but one day, I'll die. Just like Nicole, just like everyone else. I will! I like to think that if I was created for this Earth, I would live forever on it - but I wasn't and therefore I won't. There will be a day where I no longer exist. Thinking about this makes me want to run to my God more and more! It makes me want to give myself up and do everything for HIS glory! My time on earth is limited... and my time in eternity is forever, so I need to always remember that i was not created to reside here. I was created to reside with my maker. I am so thankful to be a child of the MOST HIGH GOD!! God, help me live like this not just on October 19th, but ever day!