I am so overwhelmed by God's grace. How he loves me and cares for me despite my stupidity and my faults. How even when I mess up and completely blow it, he's right there waiting for me! He WANTS me and pursues me! It just really hit me today how this earth is not my home. Because I am a Christian - I have the knowledge of this... i "know" that one day I will die and one day i will reside in Heaven for all of eternity with my Savior - but I don't think I know it, if that makes sense. It's really hard to think of death at 23 - to think that one day this life will be over. It's hard to see life without my husband and my friends and my family. But the truth of the matter is: one day 100% of all people, including myself, will die. Then what? Nothing in this whole world matters - except what I do for Christ! I struggle so much sometimes to choose Him above the desires of my heart - it's so easy to choose myself when eternity seems so far away. The truth is: it's not so far away... and I was never created for Earth. THIS IS NOT MY HOME! My ultimate destination is in eternity. Living for what is to come makes it a lot easier to live for my King instead of myself. Granted, this is not easy - it's hard... and it's a dog fight, but the more I keep my eyes focused on Him, the more I long for Him... the more I see that my fleshly desires are stupid and insignificant, though they seem huge at the time. Christ is all that matters. We hear it, we read it, but let that sink in. In 150 years, what will you be doing? What will I be doing? We'll all be somewhere. There is a greater reality to come...